don't let him get bored of me.

"don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me, don't get him get bored of me, don't let him get bored of me."

listening to mewithoutYou and feeling grim. I drank too much and stayed out too late and got too deep about shit and sounded like a fucking drunk student philosophising about life. jeeeeez.

My favourite flatmate is dropping out of uni, which leaves me in a house with all boys next year, it will be manic. Properly sad about losing someone I've really grown to love, but I can't expect her to stay here for selfish reasons and to look after me when I need someone to sit with at night.



In general people are being really nice to me at the moment, saying things that make me very happy. People I underestimated, so I feel pretty bad for ever doubting that they were nice people.


I'm overwhelmed by this constant feeling that something is going to happen, and that something is steering me. I work hard and I enjoy uni and try my hardest in everything I do so its not like I'm coasting along doing well, but I dunno, there's just this feeling that I'm going to be okay. Kerouac sums it up when he talks of letting go of the steering wheel and never veering off the road because somebody somewhere is in control of everything.

I have to go to the doctors now, so I've probably definitely jinxed everything and now I'm going to die or something.

magpie

Shit luck seems to be summing up my life at the moment. I'm living in hope that something decent will happen next week to cheer me up.

Basically, everything went tits up about mid-week when I had to do a 2,500 word seminar for the next day and as a flat we had sorted out a potential house. £60 to hold the house off the market for 5 days, then a £350 deposit to give within the 5 days. I haven't checked my bank balance since before christmas which was probably a ridiculous idea, so when I checked on Wednesday this weeeeeek I had about £20 left to deal with. Everything is sort of back on track, my mum has lent me some the deposit and a bit more to tide me over until I get a job.

Someone in Plymouth give me a job. please.
Also, site specific is absolutely amazing, just my sort of thing.





TO DO:

1 random act of kindness, record. for site.

Sign contract for houuuuse

5,000-6,000 word learning log

GET A JOB

Start researching for essays, NOW instead of at midnight the night before it's due in.

GET A JOB!

Sort your life out

Try and get new clothes and stuff without spending money. A challenge indeed.



DONE:

Bradshaw necklace - ultimately a decision I regret after realising how little money I had

Seminar! yeah boyyy

Sort out £350 for house deposit